the other side of D...my life in private

i'm a mess

tiptoed slowly out your doorway- this morning
then got in my bed and cried all day
i wish the tears could wash your smell away
i wish there was another way

i layed there with you starting at the ceiling
wanting you to hold me like you did
but you just slept
and forgot i was there
i realized you would never care

the excitement used to make me smile
i would sit on your bathroom floor and count the tiles
just to keep from getting too overwhelmed
when you played that song for the 100th time

i asked you who sings it
as if i didn't already know
and i was moved that you would play that song for me
never thinking you probably played it for all your friends
b/c that's how you saw me

i guess i'll never shine like times square
and i won't stop straightening my hair
to wear it wavey for you
i'll never listen to that song without feeling moved

at the end of it all-i miss you
and this empty feeling wont go away
i know i smiled and said i was fine
i lied

posted by D @ 10:04 AM