the other side of D...my life in private

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I’m trying to feel something
More like I did yesterday
I’m searching through the clutter
But I’ve yet to find my way
And in between the pot-ash
And the roaches on the floor
I’m not sure what I’m wanting
But I know it must be more

A fingertip to brush
My bangs out of my eyes
Lips to kiss the sad away
A love to make me high
And when I think of what I see
The future seems so far
I look around both up and down
But here is where you are

It’s hard to breathe tomorrow
When you still can’t live today
I’m dying to find passion that’s real
Not from a love song or a play
All the movies end the same
A wedding and a smiling bride
I never knew I could be so cold
Until I gave into my pride

So maybe I’m pushing everyone
To or from me but faster
Maybe the credits will fade to grey
And we’ll get to see what comes after
I want to know how this will end
Because it has to be over eventually
I can’t accept that this could be it
I’ve got to see this rationally

I don’t know who this song is for
I don’t know if you exist
But if you do, say hi one day
Until then I’ll pretend we just kissed
You see I love like a lion
But I approach it like a lamb
I hold my head up high at night
And light the skies of Bethlehem


Take that plastered smile off my face
I’m petrified of letting go
I want to be the leader of the pack
Shrugging and saying “I just don’t know”
Sometimes it’s harder to be the foole
Then to be both lovers and the king
Today it might just be easier
To close my dry eyes and sing

posted by D @ 2:07 PM